She is a free sole,
Trapped in the tower of expectations
The higher she flew the greater she feared she would fall
Opinions of other’s weighed her down
Pulling her and ripping her wings apart
Thought by thought
As they manipulated her mind to the core
Even believing in herself felt impossible
Will she ever escape this condition?
Yours truly a losser to life
Tears swelled up in my eyes yet I remained silent. But after going home I silently cried myself to sleep. I dont have answer.I swore that day I will not let him see my tears but work my ass off to prove him wrong. But when ever I think of this idiot tears come out of my eyes without permission. From that day I never spoke a word to him even though he continued to torment me for a while as I gave no interest to him. He knew I was angry with him for his actions. He was a jerk but I felt I was bigger one for falling for him. On the last day of school I made sure everyone wrote a small message to remember them by in my memory book except Prithivi. He noticed this and snatched my book and started scribling. I looked angrly at him. He said nothing and handed me the book and left. He wrote stop being so angry, chill you will be a good doc. These words are his last. These words have periced me. They were not enough for what he said or did to me. He humilated me every day but he had no bloody right to make fun of my dreams in front of everyone but tell me that i will be a good doc priviately. He made me stole one thing from me the right to dream. Seriously no way,not in my watch is he ever going to get away with this. I felt his words have kicked some sense into my brain to work my blood, sweat socks off. I wanted so badly to prove him wrong for ever dougting me in the first place. I dedicated my next two years to give it my best shot. His words kept on repeating in my head over and over again every day before I went to sleep. This only drove me crazy to work harder than ever for anything I have ever worked for in my life. That year the medical examination was muddled up as I am so lucky. I ended up taking the exam multiple times thanks to neet. The syallbus for the new medical examination was changed in the last minute.I gave up hope and joined a Bsc course. When finally the news came like a rainbow after a long storm that I qualified the exam. I was over the moon. There is always a but in life as my marks were too low for medical but just enough for dental school. Life is a chess board you never know what might me round the corner.I joined my dental school with a disheartened. My dreams were shattered but the pieces somehow stuck together but one peice was missing. I ended moving halfway across India to create my living dream.
It was more difficult than I thought. I had to learn Hindhi as I didn’t know along with first year subjects which were taught in Hindi. I still don’t understand how I managed all that in first year and passed with flying colours. Every year I worked myself. Now when I look back I am so surprised.In the second year one of Prithivi’s friends got in touch in social media and apologised for being a complete jackass for treating me like that.That got me thinking to contact Prithivi.Finally I decided to tell Prithivi how I felt. I litterly stalked him on social media. Finally I got the nerve to message him in insta. I thought he would not reply but he did to my shock. I told him how I felt and he said sorry for his behavior.The motto behind writing my experience is not to look down on Prithivi William Palaparthy for his actions but for an end to all this emotional energy that was killing me from inside. Its about time I moved on and hope to never see or think of Prithivi chapter again in my life again. I regret my first one sided love but his words have hurt me immenselly but to tell the truth his words have been encouragement batteries to reach where I am today. So I end this by thanking him for kicking some sense into my head to go after my dreams. I hope my life experience will help you guys to go after your dreams and to never let anyone get better of you, dont give up!!!…..